hellooooo- i kinda have forgotten to work on this as much as i planned :p

i think im in a place where im (somewhat) happy with how the website looks, maybe change the colour so it isnt soooo boring but yk i'll work on that over the holidays, speaking of that.. technically today is my last term two ever so thats odd.

my girlfriend is going over to america over the second week of the holidays :c

im like rly scared and afraid cus with all the shit going on over there plus worldwide rn i just don't want smth to happen to herrr.. she'll be fine but im just worried :>

alsooo.. yesterday a year ago was when i came out as trans publically!!

uhhh im honestly soo grateful that everyone has been super kind and supportive of my transition.. even though the world is currently turning into shit there are so many ppl around me (and hopefully you) that are supportive of whatever we do!!

anyways- school suckss.. i only really have like 14ish weeks left until classes end (then we get study period) but ngl i just want it to end nowww

and idk man i just dislike it, my "caregivers" (long story) are gonna talk to the school to see if i can get out of physics (fuck miss brenchley) so i can use that time to just focus on my other classes cus ngl i rly could use that extra time to just like study and focus..

i like was doing this english assessment and like thought i was fucking everything up so i restarted it basically and then stayed up until like 2:30am just working on it sinse like maybe 8pm? shit was so baddd but honestly just pray i pass

anyways theres my entry for like the next few weeks- cya!!

i haven't really been doing much..

idk the last few days just have not been it at all- just stressed and sooo fucking tried

i'm going to the formal with my girlfriend but cus my attendance is low i have to appeal it.. and its just stupid, we have jack shit time to even appeal plus the school was like "oh just like talk to us so we can update you're attendance so you don't have to appeal" like wtf do you mean.. ig it saves me from doing it but just adds so much stress

uh a teacher asked a very personal question while i was in class and that genuinely made me feel so uncomfortable.. like i just don't get how the fuck you ask a personal question while im doing school work, a friend was with me as well and it was just so unprofessional of them

oh also big news.. i brought dog ears :3

they arrive sometime like end of june so yippie c:

its hand-made and like really well done so they should hopefully last me a long time.. i might post a pic on here when i get them

june is such an odd and weird month.. let me explain

for me- june is a month of gratitude and thankfulness? idk if thats a word but whatever..

around a year ago, i was going through some really ruff stuff (imsry :3) and its so fucking weird.. it feels like it all happened yesterday but ages ago at the exact same time.. it makes me feel icky- and ig knowing that it all happend a year ago is also making me like wtf..

like- how have i managed to grow so much in a year? how have i managed to dig myself out of the hole i once was in? how the fuck am i sane? apart of me doesn't get- but i guess there's some beauty in not understanding it..

its crazy to think about me a year ago because i genuinely don't recognize them.. i was so lost and afraid.. so confused.. mental health is so fucking important and i wish i recognized that earlier-

the human condition can be hard.. but i know that both you and me are stronger than it c: